It hasn't let me update for three weeks, and it'll barely let me sign in now. Actually, it's my Internet Explorer that keeps encountering errors. So screw it. I just need a place to dump my thoughts.

Everything will be over soon. The last TYS concert of the year is Sunday, but then the next weekend we're going to the San Juans to play a concert there. The school orchestra trip to Cannon Beach is the week after next. AP exams are over. The SAT is on June 3. Piano recital this Thursday and another on June 10. After all that I'm pretty much done. Just have to get through to the end of school, June 23. All I have to do is push through the next week, and then I'll have a week of fun, and then a week of catching up on what I missed at school/studying for SATs, and then I'm done. Bascially.

I just...I don't know. I'm happy. I think I'm happy. I'm pretty sure I'm happy. Yeah, I'm happy all right.

I don't know.

I've just been putting private thoughts in my LiveJournal, and just setting the security on those entries to "Private" so I'm the only one who can read them. That way it's actually like a journal. For my own thoughts. Not to share. Anyway, if you'd really like to see what I'm thinking, here's my LiveJournal: http://blueyoshi22.livejournal.com/

So I don't really know what to say here.

Life is good.

Ooh, I smell food.

Well. Happy New Year, everyone.

I'm not making resolutions. Today is really just another day. We celebrate according to the system we have created to organize time.

Last night was pretty fun...I went to a friend's house for 4.5 hours with a bunch of other people and we just hung out and talked and played Super Smash Bros. Yeah, not bad. Although, going out and actually doing something is more fun, this wasn't bad. Just to be with a group of friends was fun. Ah, the topics we covered.

"What is E-M-O music?"

Michael left right before we really started having fun.

I read the first few chapters this morning. It's been assigned for my English class. Not that you care.

What is it about the desire of humans to share things, even if they know that the audience doesn't care/doesn't care a lot about it? I mean, I tell my brother stuff, and he doesn't care. Hasn't stopped me from sharing about my life or telling him stories of what I've done that day. Is it in us to naturally want to have an association with another human being, however weak that link may be? I mean, admit it, many of your friends have similar interests. I'm friends with people who have similar interests. I'd try not to be friends with someone that I have literally nothing in common with. Although, as I go through life, I find that I have something in common with nearly every person I encounter. At least, enough to carry on conversation. I wouldn't call them all my friends, but simply people I am friendly with. Does that make sense? I think so.

It's winter break, and I'm relieved. THIS will be my time to catch up on piano and violin. It has to be. I really need to be hard on myself for once and make myself progress. I resolve it here, and when winter break is ending I'll post my results here as well.

I like to check my visitor statistics, see how much traffic I'm getting. And I've posted some weird ones before. Is it weirder than usual, then to be chugging along slightly erratically and then jump? Here are the numbers for the past week or so:

89
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That's just weird.

I had a pretty good Thanksgiving. There's really nothing to write about, good night.

It's almost Thanksgiving, and I have to say that I'm looking forward to the long weekend more than I'm looking forward to the holiday itself. I have a really busy three days leading up to Thanksgiving.

Last night I went to see a school play. They performed "Noises Off" this year, and it was really good. Very, very funny, and a solid performance from every actor. I met my friend, the same one from the football game, and we sat together. We had some pretty good conversations during the intermissions. It's this kind of thing that makes me happy, one on one time with people I don't normally get to spend a lot of time with. Well no, it has to be certain people. I mean, there are many friends that I don't really have a desire to spend one on one time with. I'm perfectly happy with just hanging out at school with them. I don't know, it really does depend on the person.

I feel like I've changed a lot in the last two years. A lot. I think I've become more of a thinker. I just think and contemplate about life more often, and I start to appreciate deep conversations almost as much as I appreciate a good laugh. It's less extreme when I change myself when around different groups of people. Not to say that I'm a completely different person, it's just that..well...I guess it's just that there are certain things about each person or group of people that make me want to reveal or not reveal certain things about myself. I'm sure this is normal, right? Anyway, I find that I do this a little bit less now. Perhaps I'm going through that teenage "discovering myself" phase of my life, but it just sounds so, cliche, and that's not how I'm feeling.

By the way, if this sounds depressing or lonely or something, it's really not. I'm quite happy.